Something has just happened. It is messing with my brain. But its real life, so its good.
I think that I need to get better now. I cant be this sick, its not good for me. (That makes sense to me)
Im deciding to get better. At least for now. No more moping around. I can fake being normal just like everyone else. If I dont, I will be all alone forever.
This cold means that I cant take this new frustration and go to the gym. Basically, Im going back to my old goals. Lose weight, enjoy each day and go to the snow in July. There are people more crazy than me around and they have a better life. I need to fix that. If I am healthy (ish) by the end of the year then I might go to the UK or something. But Im not going to sit around my room any more.
I wonder if there is a way to capture this motivation so that next time I get sick I can use it. Ill have to work out a way to do that.
