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Most of you know, I have been trying to live life “In case I die” meaning, if I were to die tomorrow what do I want to have done today.
This on the surface, this seems selfish, but when you think about it more it’s not. To really think like this, it means having an understanding of the problems that you will create with your behaviour (if it is too selfish, it probably causes pain for other people, which is not the type of thing you want to do on your last day alive)
Anyway, so the reason I lose is that I sometimes I miss out on things that I want to do. Don’t get me wrong, this is partially a self preservation thing. So it means that I feel like I am doing the ‘right’ thing, when I really want to be doing something different.
But, such is life. I am in India so I am getting very used to having anything and everything that I want. So feeling like I am missing out on anything is driving me crazy.
Again, please don’t misunderstand. I love being in India, I am currently in Chennai with Chantalle and having a great time. I just sometimes want more than I have, I guess its the human condition.
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After reading this entry the fifth time I think I finally got what you were saying!
I’ve been wondering lately about the idea of selfishness… I suppose being selfish means ONLY thinking of yourself? But does not being selfish = loving others? I’m more just wondering rather than asking you specifically… does love have to be actively loving or actively avoiding hurting others… or both?
Anyway! It sounds like you’re having a fabulous time in India. My only problem is I want to see more photos. :p
Comment by Meegs May 21, 2009 7:31 pm @ 7:31 pmYeah, that’s your only problem
Comment by Alz May 22, 2009 3:11 am @ 3:11 am