Just Thinking…

I had intended to go to my POD blog today and look up my learning goals that I had set and change them to reflect where I am at now.
The goals are all still fairly good. I have actually addressed a whole lot of them.

I have been journaling this whole time, but not online. I am going to go back and pull bits out of the written journals to put up here so that it is an accurate reflection of what has been going on this year.

The main thing that has happened is that I have let go of all the ‘other’ things I wanted for my life. The main ones were my job/corporate career and travelling the world. I have accepted that these are not things that I am living my life for. I might get to travel as time goes on, but im not going to make it a priority for my life. I have left my job with BlueScope. I was finding that very hard to do, but then I got pneumonia and had 6 weeks in bed away from work. It was much easier to leave after that, I was already detached.

I have been in New Zealand on a break from life. I decided that I had to learn to live without having my life full and busy to keep me distracted. This trip has been really good for me as I have learned to just be happy with where I am and who I am. I have had no responsibility and no one to look after but myself, this was a daunting thought to start with as it is situations like this I usually struggle with depression. I feel the best I ever have in my life. I have been deliberately spending more time with God and as I result I feel much more confident that I am heading the right way.

My generally health and fitness is another part of this trip. I am eating better than I ever have before and exercising almost every day. I feel strong enough to face the rest of my life and to do it well.

I have read almost the entire New Testament over the past few weeks. I had not read most of it before and it was quite interesting for me, I am motivated to be part of a bible study group when I get back to Wollongong.

So I feel like I am heading to the same place that I was in February, but now I am more sure of it as the right thing to do and I have accepted that there are things I have to give up, but thats OK.